My mom told me, if i was going to start seeing my ex again, then I needed to follow some rules, to guide myself on, she said, go on 7 dates with him before you become bf/gf again, and 14 till you are aloud to sleep with him again(we had an intimate  8 month relationship before everything bad happened, and waiting would help see true motives) It’s been 3 dates now, and I’m starting to understand that he really is sorry for everything he did in the past to make us break up, and that he really does want to start anew, and for good reasons, not selfish sex reasons, or something. As of yesterday, i had decided that, I wasnt going to follow my mothers plan, and count dates. fuck that, I don’t need dates to see he’s changed for the better, for me. This was YESTERDAY when i decided this(didnt tell him)

Today, he took me to the mall, and we went around aimlessly window shopping, and HE pulled ME into Zales Jewelers, turns out, he’s planning on buying me a promise ring, if we really do get back together, and become serious again. It’s the promise ring that i had pointed to, about 4 months ago(when we were still dating, obviously) when him and I had went with my mom to find her a ring for her boyfriend. The ring, is white gold, has 2 hearts that connect, and has both our birthstones in it, His is Diamond, and mine is Garnet, It’s gorgeous.

This all left me very speechless at the mall, i didn’t know what to do, or what to say. I just was in complete awe, and told him he really didnt have to get me anything, and he said, “Consider it a Christmas present, and when that time comes and we’re happily dating again, I’ll get it for you.”

I’m still very much in awe, that he is willing to spend so much money on me. I really do believe he doesnt have to get me SHIT, I’d still get back with him regardless<3

I don’t understand why most girls don’t like terms of endearment, or pet names.
I think it’s adorable, there’s only 3 I rather not be called. Don’t call me babe, baby, or Hun. And we’re golden.
Clever cute names for the win :)

He calls me, Doll :3 
It’s old fashioned, it’s so cute.

Facebook Official?

Why does it need to be? Can two people not be "in a relationship" without it all over facebook? Can two people not be boyfriend and girlfriend without it being all over facebook? Personally i don’t think it matters. People survived just fine BEFORE facebook was even here. But for some reason in today’s society, you need to plaster your life all over the internet.

I wouldn’t really have a problem posting it on facebook if there wasn’t all that drama that goes along with it. Yes i know, me and my ex broke up a month ago, and it may be “too soon” but why can’t i move on and be happy without all my family members, friends, and people who are just facebook friends seeing it. I REALLY don’t get this. I don’t want your LIKES, or your COMMENTS, I don’t need your APPROVAL on who i date.

And then I get people looking looking down on me(or at least thats how it looks) for not making it facebook official. Like I’m really going to fuck with this sweet boy’s heart like that. :/ just a tad bit upsetting to me.

You’re always trying to 1-up me. Its very aggravating. Ever since YOU told me, we werent going to work out, and I tried to move on by getting a new boyfriend, you’re always trying to mention little things to me, trying to annoy me. It seems like you want to put me in tears. I think you made up this “girlfriend” of yours, she doesnt even have a real facebook profile picture. and i know you’ve made fake pages before. you’re always talking about her to me, when all this time i’ve been respectful to you not talking about my boyfriend. As if i cared about you two.

You told me you loved me, I really liked you too, you played me for a fool, and now you try and rub it in my face.

why must you torture me.

You even argue with me that its MY fault we didnt date, even though YOU told ME, I lived too far, and I was too young.

Fuck this, no more. I missed you enough to put up with it until now. But i cant take it anymore.

Goodbye with a tear in my eye, I just can’t talk to you anymore.