HAH

Oh it makes me laugh when my ex calls me, asking for me to help him on WoW so he can get an achievement and some other shit.

HOW ABOUT NO. >.>

I don’t feel like helping you with SHIT.

My mom told me, if i was going to start seeing my ex again, then I needed to follow some rules, to guide myself on, she said, go on 7 dates with him before you become bf/gf again, and 14 till you are aloud to sleep with him again(we had an intimate  8 month relationship before everything bad happened, and waiting would help see true motives) It’s been 3 dates now, and I’m starting to understand that he really is sorry for everything he did in the past to make us break up, and that he really does want to start anew, and for good reasons, not selfish sex reasons, or something. As of yesterday, i had decided that, I wasnt going to follow my mothers plan, and count dates. fuck that, I don’t need dates to see he’s changed for the better, for me. This was YESTERDAY when i decided this(didnt tell him)

Today, he took me to the mall, and we went around aimlessly window shopping, and HE pulled ME into Zales Jewelers, turns out, he’s planning on buying me a promise ring, if we really do get back together, and become serious again. It’s the promise ring that i had pointed to, about 4 months ago(when we were still dating, obviously) when him and I had went with my mom to find her a ring for her boyfriend. The ring, is white gold, has 2 hearts that connect, and has both our birthstones in it, His is Diamond, and mine is Garnet, It’s gorgeous.

This all left me very speechless at the mall, i didn’t know what to do, or what to say. I just was in complete awe, and told him he really didnt have to get me anything, and he said, “Consider it a Christmas present, and when that time comes and we’re happily dating again, I’ll get it for you.”

I’m still very much in awe, that he is willing to spend so much money on me. I really do believe he doesnt have to get me SHIT, I’d still get back with him regardless<3

The truth can be harsh, but its what needs to be said.

You don’t think i already feel bad enough? Nono, telling me you think you might love me won’t make me feel worse(sarcasm).

Yeah, I understand things suck right now for you, because i said we should be friends, But I’m taking this time to figure out what really makes me happy, because that’s what really matters to me, Is MY happiness.

What i really and honestly think i should do, is talk things over with my ex and see about all that, because I do still miss him, and being with him, and having such a mature, non high-school drama relationship.

It will suck, and I’m sorry, but in my opinion, everyone needs their heart broken or hurt at least once in their life, to REALLY appreciate everything they have.

To sum up, we will be friends, and i’m not just saying that to start ditching you, i mean, BE FRIENDS, hang out at lunch in school, and chill together in drama.

(BEING FRIENDS MEANS, DON’T TRY AND KISS ME IN SCHOOL)